1 00:00:05,005 --> 00:00:06,740 [tense music] 2 00:00:06,840 --> 00:00:07,875 [Aaron] Cold is coming. 3 00:00:07,908 --> 00:00:09,243 I need to be ready. 4 00:00:09,276 --> 00:00:11,345 [imitates moose call] 5 00:00:11,378 --> 00:00:14,948 Right now, it should be prime-time moose hunting. 6 00:00:14,948 --> 00:00:16,783 If we get a moose, we win this competition. 7 00:00:16,884 --> 00:00:19,286 There's not a doubt in my mind. 8 00:00:19,319 --> 00:00:21,388 [Jacks] Oh, God, 9 00:00:21,488 --> 00:00:24,191 a dead beaver. 10 00:00:24,224 --> 00:00:26,159 There's a live beaver there. Dead beaver there. 11 00:00:26,193 --> 00:00:28,061 Whoa. What do I do? 12 00:00:28,161 --> 00:00:30,831 If I can honor him, then I believe 13 00:00:30,931 --> 00:00:32,098 that he is worth taking. 14 00:00:32,131 --> 00:00:33,867 I'm not ready to give up. 15 00:00:33,867 --> 00:00:36,803 I have to try and get this beaver. 16 00:00:36,837 --> 00:00:38,472 [Will] Holy. 17 00:00:38,572 --> 00:00:39,473 Snow. 18 00:00:39,573 --> 00:00:40,941 I have food. 19 00:00:41,041 --> 00:00:43,310 It is now a different environment. 20 00:00:43,343 --> 00:00:46,446 Other than I haven't pooped in a long time, 21 00:00:46,480 --> 00:00:48,615 I feel like I have enough energy. 22 00:00:48,715 --> 00:00:52,119 Camp is officially done. Camp Ukalaitchaq. 23 00:00:52,152 --> 00:00:54,788 I'm in to win this thing, man. 24 00:00:54,888 --> 00:00:56,490 - Yes! 25 00:00:56,523 --> 00:00:59,560 To get another full-size adult beaver, 26 00:00:59,560 --> 00:01:01,161 to have that fat there... 27 00:01:01,194 --> 00:01:02,229 Thank you! 28 00:01:02,262 --> 00:01:04,531 I don't need to have big game. 29 00:01:04,565 --> 00:01:07,467 Let's go! Let's go! 30 00:01:07,467 --> 00:01:10,470 I can go deep into this competition. 31 00:01:10,504 --> 00:01:12,806 [Medic] Your heart rate's decreased to a point 32 00:01:12,806 --> 00:01:14,408 where it's now critically low. 33 00:01:14,441 --> 00:01:16,443 It's necessary to medically extract you. 34 00:01:16,476 --> 00:01:18,111 ♪ 35 00:01:18,145 --> 00:01:20,314 [Pedrosa] I gave my best. 36 00:01:20,347 --> 00:01:22,282 I hope the people around the world 37 00:01:22,316 --> 00:01:24,685 can see that I never quit. 38 00:01:24,718 --> 00:01:28,221 I am humble enough to understand that failure 39 00:01:28,322 --> 00:01:29,990 is part of the process. 40 00:01:30,090 --> 00:01:37,097 ♪ 41 00:01:55,882 --> 00:02:02,889 ♪ 42 00:02:07,828 --> 00:02:10,530 [Will] Ooh, that's hot. 43 00:02:10,564 --> 00:02:12,966 The hot water bath-- 44 00:02:13,000 --> 00:02:14,234 I got this T-shirt here. 45 00:02:14,267 --> 00:02:15,736 It was one of my clothing items. 46 00:02:15,769 --> 00:02:17,204 I cut it in half. 47 00:02:17,204 --> 00:02:20,707 We're gonna dip that T-shirt in the hot water. 48 00:02:20,741 --> 00:02:23,076 Ooh, that feels good, that hot water. 49 00:02:23,110 --> 00:02:25,812 ♪ 50 00:02:25,846 --> 00:02:27,681 Oh, it feels good. 51 00:02:27,714 --> 00:02:28,949 Mm. 52 00:02:28,982 --> 00:02:32,386 ♪ 53 00:02:32,486 --> 00:02:34,021 [sighs] 54 00:02:34,121 --> 00:02:35,756 Oh, look at the-- 55 00:02:35,756 --> 00:02:39,359 those are from my ears, the two spots. 56 00:02:39,393 --> 00:02:41,328 Do not put this on TV. 57 00:02:41,361 --> 00:02:44,798 Do not let my wife see this. 58 00:02:44,831 --> 00:02:46,800 She will be grossed out. 59 00:02:46,833 --> 00:02:51,271 ♪ 60 00:02:51,371 --> 00:02:53,006 [whispers] Put it on TV. 61 00:02:53,040 --> 00:02:54,775 ♪ 62 00:02:58,712 --> 00:03:01,248 What I'm thinking about doing is making a wall barrier. 63 00:03:01,281 --> 00:03:05,552 Keep that north wind at bay from hitting my shelter. 64 00:03:05,652 --> 00:03:08,355 We want a tree here. 65 00:03:08,355 --> 00:03:11,024 See if we could pull this one over. 66 00:03:11,124 --> 00:03:14,594 And what we're doing is making a wind block 67 00:03:14,628 --> 00:03:18,165 so all this prevailing wind 68 00:03:18,198 --> 00:03:22,202 gets blocked by this wall. 69 00:03:23,070 --> 00:03:26,039 I'm past the three-week mark-- big step. 70 00:03:26,073 --> 00:03:29,076 Got a long way to go, though. 71 00:03:29,076 --> 00:03:30,477 ♪ 72 00:03:30,510 --> 00:03:32,646 I feel like I could win this competition 73 00:03:32,679 --> 00:03:35,482 for the Iñupiaq people. 74 00:03:35,515 --> 00:03:36,750 Currently, I don't believe there is 75 00:03:36,750 --> 00:03:39,286 good representation of Iñupiaq culture 76 00:03:39,286 --> 00:03:41,488 out in the world. 77 00:03:41,521 --> 00:03:46,226 I feel like it's a culture that is new to most people. 78 00:03:46,326 --> 00:03:50,630 Now, I'd like something to hold that tree up. 79 00:03:50,664 --> 00:03:52,365 Here comes the snow. 80 00:03:52,399 --> 00:03:54,601 We don't see Iñupiaq people 81 00:03:54,634 --> 00:03:59,339 on TV or movies or in the news. 82 00:03:59,439 --> 00:04:02,275 Just within the last five years or so 83 00:04:02,275 --> 00:04:05,145 is starting to become an actual thing where 84 00:04:05,245 --> 00:04:09,216 we're getting represented in one way or the other. 85 00:04:09,249 --> 00:04:11,718 Try taking every single spruce bough 86 00:04:11,752 --> 00:04:13,920 and just throwing it up. 87 00:04:13,920 --> 00:04:19,192 We're no longer just portrayed as Eskimos that live in igloos 88 00:04:19,226 --> 00:04:24,197 and live on the ice and have fur hoods. 89 00:04:24,231 --> 00:04:26,500 We're getting shown to the world, 90 00:04:26,600 --> 00:04:27,901 especially with the younger generation, 91 00:04:28,001 --> 00:04:31,037 they're so engaged in social media, 92 00:04:31,071 --> 00:04:36,710 and to have them kind of see that it's OK to be Iñupiaq. 93 00:04:36,743 --> 00:04:38,879 It's OK to be Indigenous. 94 00:04:38,912 --> 00:04:40,313 It makes them proud of who they are, 95 00:04:40,347 --> 00:04:42,349 where they came from. 96 00:04:42,449 --> 00:04:44,518 I'm making the main structure right now. 97 00:04:44,518 --> 00:04:46,253 We'll just keep adding all the heavy, 98 00:04:46,286 --> 00:04:47,721 thick stuff on the bottom. 99 00:04:47,721 --> 00:04:51,158 This is really gonna help keep me warm in the long run. 100 00:04:51,191 --> 00:04:53,026 ♪ 101 00:04:53,059 --> 00:04:54,761 I'm extremely proud of who I am 102 00:04:54,795 --> 00:04:56,730 and who I always have been, 103 00:04:56,763 --> 00:05:01,001 not so much growing up as a teenager 104 00:05:01,034 --> 00:05:06,006 and having to move to bigger cities in Alaska, 105 00:05:06,039 --> 00:05:09,276 and it was something that I felt ashamed of at one point. 106 00:05:09,309 --> 00:05:11,278 ♪ 107 00:05:11,311 --> 00:05:13,513 I feel like I lost my culture within that time, 108 00:05:13,613 --> 00:05:15,849 going to these bigger schools 109 00:05:15,882 --> 00:05:17,918 of non-Natives 110 00:05:17,918 --> 00:05:20,120 and not feeling accepted. 111 00:05:20,120 --> 00:05:24,791 Make use of all these trees and branches. 112 00:05:24,891 --> 00:05:28,528 I would tell people I enjoy eating seal or whale, 113 00:05:28,562 --> 00:05:30,797 and they'd be grossed out and like, 114 00:05:30,831 --> 00:05:32,232 why would you eat that? 115 00:05:32,265 --> 00:05:35,302 And it was extremely challenging. 116 00:05:35,402 --> 00:05:41,007 Emotionally, I was feeling sad, kind of angry at myself, 117 00:05:41,041 --> 00:05:43,143 like, why do I have to be the Eskimo kid? 118 00:05:43,176 --> 00:05:45,245 Why do I have to be the Iñupiaq kid? 119 00:05:46,446 --> 00:05:49,983 And with that came emotions of jealousy. 120 00:05:50,083 --> 00:05:52,519 Like, why can't I be the Caucasian kid? 121 00:05:52,552 --> 00:05:54,187 ♪ 122 00:05:54,287 --> 00:05:55,722 I hated it. 123 00:05:55,722 --> 00:05:57,157 ♪ 124 00:05:57,190 --> 00:05:59,659 There were times where I had to get dragged 125 00:05:59,693 --> 00:06:01,161 into school by the principal. 126 00:06:01,194 --> 00:06:03,263 I had to get threatened with the police coming 127 00:06:03,363 --> 00:06:05,198 and bringing me inside the school. 128 00:06:05,232 --> 00:06:08,134 ♪ 129 00:06:08,235 --> 00:06:09,970 I remember crying at the time 130 00:06:10,003 --> 00:06:12,772 and just having to accept it and go in. 131 00:06:12,806 --> 00:06:14,708 It wasn't easy. 132 00:06:14,774 --> 00:06:18,912 ♪ 133 00:06:18,945 --> 00:06:22,515 Well, we got our prevailing wind wall here 134 00:06:22,549 --> 00:06:23,950 all finished up. 135 00:06:23,984 --> 00:06:26,086 It didn't take anything other than picking up 136 00:06:26,086 --> 00:06:29,556 a bunch of branches and spruce and willows 137 00:06:29,589 --> 00:06:31,791 that I already had cut 138 00:06:31,825 --> 00:06:33,593 and piling them up into a wall. 139 00:06:33,693 --> 00:06:35,495 And at the same time, 140 00:06:35,528 --> 00:06:40,367 I practiced one of our Iñupiaq iitqusiat 141 00:06:40,367 --> 00:06:46,006 Iñupiaq values, and that's to respect the land. 142 00:06:46,006 --> 00:06:51,144 So I showed respect to the land by keeping it clean, 143 00:06:51,244 --> 00:06:52,913 keeping it clear. 144 00:06:52,946 --> 00:06:55,815 This isn't our home. 145 00:06:56,683 --> 00:06:58,885 It's our temporary home. 146 00:07:03,757 --> 00:07:10,764 ♪ 147 00:07:28,214 --> 00:07:31,051 [footsteps crunching] 148 00:07:35,188 --> 00:07:37,724 [Aaron] [whispering] I might have found his house. 149 00:07:37,757 --> 00:07:38,758 That's his dam. 150 00:07:38,792 --> 00:07:41,127 Our snares are right up there. 151 00:07:41,161 --> 00:07:43,730 So we're gonna try to disassemble this a bit 152 00:07:43,763 --> 00:07:46,166 just to get them up and working. 153 00:07:46,199 --> 00:07:49,402 ♪ 154 00:07:49,402 --> 00:07:51,938 If you want to kill a beaver, 155 00:07:51,972 --> 00:07:55,008 wreck his dam and wait. 156 00:07:55,041 --> 00:07:56,676 He'll be out to fix it. 157 00:07:56,710 --> 00:08:03,717 ♪ 158 00:08:08,021 --> 00:08:11,558 Even that should... 159 00:08:11,591 --> 00:08:13,560 get him back up and working. 160 00:08:14,794 --> 00:08:17,430 He ain't gonna like me very much. 161 00:08:19,265 --> 00:08:21,501 OK, we're gonna mosey on out of here 162 00:08:21,601 --> 00:08:24,404 and then check the snares. 163 00:08:24,437 --> 00:08:26,439 ♪ 164 00:08:26,473 --> 00:08:28,908 We're not starving, but we're not flourishing. 165 00:08:29,009 --> 00:08:32,511 So lots of improvement to do. 166 00:08:32,611 --> 00:08:34,047 ♪ 167 00:08:34,080 --> 00:08:37,517 Just coming up to my first couple sets. 168 00:08:37,549 --> 00:08:39,686 This is way too early to be stressing. 169 00:08:39,719 --> 00:08:40,986 I'm enjoying myself. 170 00:08:41,020 --> 00:08:42,956 I know this is gonna be something 171 00:08:42,989 --> 00:08:44,958 I look back on as fun. 172 00:08:44,991 --> 00:08:47,761 But right now, it's hard work. 173 00:08:47,761 --> 00:08:49,596 Oh, there's bunny tracks. 174 00:08:49,596 --> 00:08:52,665 OK, well, that's-- that's good. 175 00:08:52,766 --> 00:08:55,935 We're getting dialed. 176 00:08:55,969 --> 00:08:58,805 It's not as easy as a guy would think. 177 00:08:58,838 --> 00:09:01,708 The lack of calories, the distance a guy's 178 00:09:01,741 --> 00:09:05,078 got to walk to find some good trapping areas 179 00:09:05,111 --> 00:09:09,482 is a challenge, but I welcome it. 180 00:09:09,516 --> 00:09:13,753 Coming up on the next set. This is a set of four. 181 00:09:13,787 --> 00:09:15,889 We're in it to win it, man. 182 00:09:16,856 --> 00:09:18,391 Oh, we got one. 183 00:09:19,726 --> 00:09:21,194 We got ourselves a bunny. 184 00:09:24,798 --> 00:09:26,800 Perfect snare right around his neck. 185 00:09:26,800 --> 00:09:29,169 He didn't last long. 186 00:09:30,403 --> 00:09:32,405 Ooh, we got dinner. 187 00:09:34,174 --> 00:09:35,442 This is me bunny. 188 00:09:35,475 --> 00:09:39,112 It's my first bunny of the trip. 189 00:09:41,347 --> 00:09:43,283 It's gonna taste good. 190 00:09:43,316 --> 00:09:44,951 ♪ 191 00:09:45,051 --> 00:09:46,653 I got food. 192 00:09:47,987 --> 00:09:51,624 I got two days out of this bunny too. 193 00:09:51,724 --> 00:09:54,961 We're here for one goal and one goal only. 194 00:09:54,994 --> 00:09:56,429 Let's go through here and walk along. 195 00:09:56,529 --> 00:10:00,366 We know there's a snare here. 196 00:10:00,366 --> 00:10:01,901 I'm not here to find myself. 197 00:10:02,001 --> 00:10:04,971 I'm not here to enjoy the woods. 198 00:10:05,004 --> 00:10:06,606 I'm here to win, 199 00:10:06,639 --> 00:10:08,308 and that is the bottom line. 200 00:10:08,408 --> 00:10:10,643 I want the win and the money. 201 00:10:10,677 --> 00:10:12,512 Oh, there's a rabbit. 202 00:10:12,612 --> 00:10:15,515 [whispers] I gotta get my bow. 203 00:10:15,515 --> 00:10:17,717 There's a live rabbit right here. 204 00:10:17,750 --> 00:10:23,723 ♪ 205 00:10:23,756 --> 00:10:25,058 [bow snaps] 206 00:10:25,091 --> 00:10:28,027 Got him. 207 00:10:28,128 --> 00:10:31,197 OK, let's go check the next set. 208 00:10:31,231 --> 00:10:34,634 Losing's not an option 'cause it doesn't do nothing for you. 209 00:10:34,667 --> 00:10:37,770 I don't need this enlightened moment. 210 00:10:37,804 --> 00:10:40,440 I need to win and win only. 211 00:10:40,473 --> 00:10:43,877 And as bad as that sounds, that's why I'm here. 212 00:10:43,910 --> 00:10:46,379 We got a bunny! 213 00:10:46,412 --> 00:10:48,882 Three bunnies today. 214 00:10:48,915 --> 00:10:50,617 Beaver tomorrow. 215 00:10:50,650 --> 00:10:51,818 Lynx the next day. 216 00:10:51,851 --> 00:10:53,520 We'll have a balanced meal. 217 00:10:54,954 --> 00:10:57,757 Just gonna get a fire going and cook a bunny. 218 00:10:57,790 --> 00:11:00,994 ♪ 219 00:11:00,994 --> 00:11:03,963 [fire crackling] 220 00:11:05,598 --> 00:11:10,069 We'll get the pot full of water. 221 00:11:10,069 --> 00:11:13,439 I think I'm extremely competitive, 222 00:11:13,473 --> 00:11:16,276 competitive to a fault, even, like, where-- 223 00:11:16,276 --> 00:11:19,012 like, me and Melissa will fight over cards. 224 00:11:19,045 --> 00:11:21,948 ♪ 225 00:11:22,048 --> 00:11:23,383 People are like, oh, it's just a game. 226 00:11:23,483 --> 00:11:25,752 It's like, yeah, but you're playing the game to win. 227 00:11:25,785 --> 00:11:27,754 Why are you playing the game if you're not playing to win? 228 00:11:27,787 --> 00:11:29,956 ♪ 229 00:11:29,956 --> 00:11:31,124 It's funny, though. 230 00:11:31,157 --> 00:11:33,126 Like, the demons are creeping in. 231 00:11:33,159 --> 00:11:34,894 They're trying to tell you to go home. 232 00:11:34,994 --> 00:11:37,564 It's like, it's not an option for me. 233 00:11:37,564 --> 00:11:38,598 ♪ 234 00:11:38,631 --> 00:11:39,799 [groans] 235 00:11:42,235 --> 00:11:44,270 Be nice to make it home for Christmas, 236 00:11:44,370 --> 00:11:47,674 but if we don't, we don't. 237 00:11:47,707 --> 00:11:51,044 I can't see anybody else doing this, though. 238 00:11:51,077 --> 00:11:54,514 My boy, Ziga, I don't know how he's faring. 239 00:11:54,547 --> 00:11:59,052 Guy seems awesome, but he don't bring a ferro rod. 240 00:11:59,085 --> 00:12:04,390 I think Nero's gonna freeze his feet off with his mukluks. 241 00:12:04,424 --> 00:12:07,594 Will's a dog, but he's got four kids. 242 00:12:07,627 --> 00:12:10,029 I literally got nothing to go home to. 243 00:12:12,532 --> 00:12:15,435 Oh, the heart's delicious. 244 00:12:15,468 --> 00:12:18,705 The funny thing is, I've never been like a big heart person. 245 00:12:18,738 --> 00:12:21,241 I made my decision a long time ago. 246 00:12:23,009 --> 00:12:24,444 So good, man. 247 00:12:24,477 --> 00:12:27,447 We're going for 90, and if we get there 248 00:12:27,480 --> 00:12:29,215 and we're still in the game, 249 00:12:29,315 --> 00:12:32,885 then we'll have to adjust and keep going. 250 00:12:32,919 --> 00:12:35,722 ♪ 251 00:12:35,755 --> 00:12:38,324 But a lot can happen between then and now. 252 00:12:38,358 --> 00:12:43,596 ♪ 253 00:12:43,630 --> 00:12:46,599 There's no other option. 254 00:12:46,633 --> 00:12:50,470 ♪ 255 00:12:55,608 --> 00:12:58,511 [tense music] 256 00:12:58,611 --> 00:13:05,618 ♪ 257 00:13:11,891 --> 00:13:14,927 [Aaron imitating moose call] 258 00:13:19,332 --> 00:13:22,368 [moose call continues] 259 00:13:23,703 --> 00:13:26,739 [bird chirping] 260 00:13:28,074 --> 00:13:31,077 [whispers] Shut the [bleep] up, Tweety Bird. 261 00:13:34,280 --> 00:13:37,317 Every moose is [bleep] gone. 262 00:13:52,765 --> 00:13:55,668 I'm going to check a bunch of snares, 263 00:13:55,702 --> 00:13:58,271 hopefully find some critters. 264 00:13:58,304 --> 00:14:00,640 All right, wish me luck. 265 00:14:00,640 --> 00:14:07,380 ♪ 266 00:14:07,480 --> 00:14:09,749 Not looking very good for any big game. 267 00:14:09,849 --> 00:14:11,718 ♪ 268 00:14:11,718 --> 00:14:14,053 There's a fresh skiff of snow, 269 00:14:14,087 --> 00:14:16,155 no sign of nothing. 270 00:14:16,189 --> 00:14:17,924 Went and checked the pond again. 271 00:14:17,957 --> 00:14:20,560 There's no ducks or anything. 272 00:14:20,560 --> 00:14:23,629 Made a fish lure. Didn't work. 273 00:14:23,663 --> 00:14:28,034 We're gonna have to focus on small game. 274 00:14:28,067 --> 00:14:31,471 Just coming up to my first couple sets. 275 00:14:31,504 --> 00:14:36,442 Oh, my God, guys, I think I had the lynx. 276 00:14:36,476 --> 00:14:39,312 There's tracks everywhere. 277 00:14:39,379 --> 00:14:41,881 ♪ 278 00:14:41,914 --> 00:14:43,850 There's that one. 279 00:14:44,884 --> 00:14:46,419 [bleep]. 280 00:14:46,452 --> 00:14:48,721 He got through. 281 00:14:48,721 --> 00:14:51,190 Oh, my God. 282 00:14:51,224 --> 00:14:54,193 Like, how is that like this? 283 00:14:54,227 --> 00:15:00,133 ♪ 284 00:15:00,166 --> 00:15:03,369 Like, does that not mean I got something and he wiggled out? 285 00:15:03,403 --> 00:15:06,773 ♪ 286 00:15:06,806 --> 00:15:09,809 The other one's pushed aside. 287 00:15:09,842 --> 00:15:16,849 ♪ 288 00:15:18,684 --> 00:15:20,686 Oh, there's-- 289 00:15:20,686 --> 00:15:21,921 ♪ 290 00:15:21,954 --> 00:15:23,923 Beaver's been here. 291 00:15:23,956 --> 00:15:26,459 ♪ 292 00:15:26,492 --> 00:15:28,628 Oh, my God. He got it. 293 00:15:28,661 --> 00:15:30,963 ♪ 294 00:15:30,997 --> 00:15:32,999 The snare's gone. 295 00:15:32,999 --> 00:15:36,068 ♪ 296 00:15:36,102 --> 00:15:39,071 What the [bleep], man? 297 00:15:39,105 --> 00:15:42,842 ♪ 298 00:15:42,875 --> 00:15:45,645 I snared him, and he got away. 299 00:15:45,645 --> 00:15:49,048 This is embarrassing. 300 00:15:49,081 --> 00:15:51,717 ♪ 301 00:15:51,751 --> 00:15:54,420 Snared the lynx, but he obviously-- 302 00:15:54,520 --> 00:15:56,289 I don't know-- somehow deked me. 303 00:15:56,322 --> 00:16:01,294 And, yeah, the beaver stole one of my snares. 304 00:16:01,327 --> 00:16:04,897 Stroke of luck. I found it in the-- 305 00:16:04,931 --> 00:16:07,567 he had it on him, and he walked it up here. 306 00:16:07,600 --> 00:16:09,001 He got it off the tree. 307 00:16:09,035 --> 00:16:11,037 ♪ 308 00:16:11,070 --> 00:16:12,705 I've set many a snares in my day. 309 00:16:12,805 --> 00:16:14,640 I'm looking like a damn rookie. 310 00:16:16,108 --> 00:16:18,578 We're gonna regroup and figure out 311 00:16:18,611 --> 00:16:20,580 how we're gonna get these guys. 312 00:16:20,613 --> 00:16:23,950 And we'll need some different luck. 313 00:16:23,983 --> 00:16:25,518 That's for sure. 314 00:16:25,518 --> 00:16:32,525 ♪ 315 00:16:39,031 --> 00:16:43,035 We gonna get you, Mr. Kitty. 316 00:16:43,069 --> 00:16:45,438 That's the big kitty too. 317 00:16:47,039 --> 00:16:49,041 If he starts robbing my bunnies, 318 00:16:49,041 --> 00:16:51,077 that's not good. 319 00:16:51,110 --> 00:16:53,379 I don't know how many bunnies they eat a night, 320 00:16:53,412 --> 00:16:56,282 but we gotta get rid of this guy. 321 00:16:58,918 --> 00:17:00,520 Man, 322 00:17:00,553 --> 00:17:04,357 don't mess with a man's bunny, Mr. Kitty. 323 00:17:04,390 --> 00:17:05,892 Two things you don't mess with-- 324 00:17:05,925 --> 00:17:10,396 a man's money and his wife and his kids if he's got them. 325 00:17:10,429 --> 00:17:13,965 But don't got kids. 326 00:17:15,835 --> 00:17:18,204 What is going on here? 327 00:17:24,477 --> 00:17:26,479 ♪ 328 00:17:35,221 --> 00:17:42,128 ♪ 329 00:17:42,562 --> 00:17:44,564 Oh, [bleep]. 330 00:17:44,564 --> 00:17:46,132 ♪ 331 00:17:48,200 --> 00:17:51,637 ♪ 332 00:17:54,507 --> 00:17:56,175 [tense music] 333 00:17:56,208 --> 00:17:57,476 [Aaron] I'm right behind him. 334 00:17:57,510 --> 00:18:00,313 ♪ 335 00:18:03,516 --> 00:18:07,453 I gotta keep following and keep our eyes up. 336 00:18:07,486 --> 00:18:10,556 He's going right towards my camp. 337 00:18:10,590 --> 00:18:14,093 ♪ 338 00:18:14,126 --> 00:18:17,129 Oh, baby, come on. 339 00:18:17,163 --> 00:18:19,832 I need this more than anything. 340 00:18:21,434 --> 00:18:24,370 I need to spot him before he spots me. 341 00:18:26,305 --> 00:18:27,840 I've had the chance at lynx. 342 00:18:27,840 --> 00:18:29,408 I've had the chance at beaver. 343 00:18:29,442 --> 00:18:31,077 I need the fats, 344 00:18:31,110 --> 00:18:33,879 but I haven't had bad luck like this before. 345 00:18:33,913 --> 00:18:36,148 I'm gonna follow this bastard until I find him. 346 00:18:36,248 --> 00:18:38,184 He's gotta stop somewhere. 347 00:18:38,284 --> 00:18:40,286 With the amount of food on these moose, 348 00:18:40,319 --> 00:18:43,923 I can stay out here for hundreds of days. 349 00:18:43,956 --> 00:18:48,127 Man, I can't let this guy get away. 350 00:18:49,495 --> 00:18:52,632 Like, this is a $500,000 moose. 351 00:18:52,732 --> 00:18:54,834 ♪ 352 00:18:54,867 --> 00:18:57,770 Stop, you son of a gun. 353 00:18:59,171 --> 00:19:02,108 This is almost comical. 354 00:19:02,208 --> 00:19:03,309 ♪ 355 00:19:03,342 --> 00:19:05,044 Come on, guys, root for me. 356 00:19:05,077 --> 00:19:06,579 I need a prayer. 357 00:19:06,612 --> 00:19:08,748 Come on, man. 358 00:19:08,814 --> 00:19:15,588 ♪ 359 00:19:15,621 --> 00:19:18,658 [imitating moose call] 360 00:19:21,527 --> 00:19:24,563 [wind whooshing] 361 00:19:26,332 --> 00:19:29,435 Wish it wasn't windy. 362 00:19:29,468 --> 00:19:31,370 This is the one day I didn't want wind. 363 00:19:31,404 --> 00:19:32,838 You see tracks, you don't want wind, 364 00:19:32,872 --> 00:19:34,507 'cause you can call them back. 365 00:19:34,607 --> 00:19:38,077 Like, they can hear a long ways away with those big ears. 366 00:19:38,110 --> 00:19:41,113 [imitating moose call] 367 00:19:47,553 --> 00:19:49,321 It's so windy. 368 00:19:51,424 --> 00:19:53,726 I don't know what to do. 369 00:19:53,759 --> 00:19:56,562 Man, that's so disheartening. 370 00:19:58,364 --> 00:20:01,367 We could be 14 hours behind him though. 371 00:20:03,169 --> 00:20:05,938 Hopefully he makes his rounds and comes back. 372 00:20:07,273 --> 00:20:09,975 ♪ 373 00:20:10,076 --> 00:20:11,777 I haven't seen any other signs, 374 00:20:11,811 --> 00:20:14,480 so we're gonna get back to work. 375 00:20:14,480 --> 00:20:16,916 ♪ 376 00:20:16,949 --> 00:20:18,417 Oh, it sucks, man. 377 00:20:18,451 --> 00:20:20,853 That's a lot of wasted energy. 378 00:20:20,886 --> 00:20:23,656 I chased him for freaking 5 kilometers, 379 00:20:23,689 --> 00:20:28,794 and the guy didn't even stop. 380 00:20:28,794 --> 00:20:31,797 I'm going to... 381 00:20:31,831 --> 00:20:33,933 get him though. 382 00:20:33,966 --> 00:20:36,635 I am optimistic that he'll be back. 383 00:20:38,537 --> 00:20:41,874 He went, like, 100 yards from my cabin. 384 00:20:42,975 --> 00:20:45,478 That is too funny. 385 00:20:46,512 --> 00:20:49,248 Come on, mother nature. 386 00:20:49,281 --> 00:20:52,351 Testing my patience, God darn it. 387 00:20:52,418 --> 00:20:59,458 ♪ 388 00:21:08,968 --> 00:21:12,571 [Will] For the next hour or so, we're gonna cut some wood. 389 00:21:12,605 --> 00:21:19,245 ♪ 390 00:21:19,245 --> 00:21:21,914 That's what that log is for. 391 00:21:21,914 --> 00:21:24,884 [saw scraping] 392 00:21:24,884 --> 00:21:29,388 ♪ 393 00:21:29,421 --> 00:21:31,791 That's how I planned that sawbuck to work, like that. 394 00:21:31,824 --> 00:21:34,326 Just like that. 395 00:21:34,360 --> 00:21:37,763 The spacer-- there you go. 396 00:21:37,763 --> 00:21:41,367 Put your log back over here. Boom. 397 00:21:41,400 --> 00:21:44,370 [saw scraping] 398 00:21:44,403 --> 00:21:51,410 ♪ 399 00:21:54,647 --> 00:21:57,950 Stomach-- it's cramping. 400 00:21:58,050 --> 00:22:01,053 ♪ 401 00:22:03,956 --> 00:22:07,893 ♪ 402 00:22:07,927 --> 00:22:11,030 I don't think I've pooped in, like, 12 days. 403 00:22:11,063 --> 00:22:12,798 [sighs] 404 00:22:12,832 --> 00:22:14,834 I got gas. 405 00:22:14,867 --> 00:22:17,703 I feel my stomach gurgling all the time. 406 00:22:17,803 --> 00:22:20,406 I just--I don't know if it's 'cause 407 00:22:20,439 --> 00:22:22,908 I got a clog in my digestive system, 408 00:22:23,008 --> 00:22:25,411 or I just haven't been eating enough, 409 00:22:25,444 --> 00:22:28,781 but I feel like I've eaten enough in the last 12 days 410 00:22:28,814 --> 00:22:31,684 to be able to poop, though, so I don't know. 411 00:22:31,717 --> 00:22:33,686 You start to get worried. 412 00:22:33,719 --> 00:22:36,188 ♪ 413 00:22:36,288 --> 00:22:38,757 Finally. 414 00:22:38,757 --> 00:22:41,327 Took a long time just to buck a few logs. 415 00:22:41,360 --> 00:22:42,828 I'm tired. 416 00:22:42,928 --> 00:22:46,365 Check that moose trail and see if there's fresh tracks on it. 417 00:22:46,365 --> 00:22:48,634 If there is, follow it. 418 00:22:48,667 --> 00:22:52,638 ♪ 419 00:22:52,638 --> 00:22:54,807 I was told that you can't just eat meat. 420 00:22:54,840 --> 00:22:56,075 You gotta eat fat too. 421 00:22:56,075 --> 00:22:58,444 Otherwise, you're gonna get constipated, 422 00:22:58,477 --> 00:23:00,913 and your body's gonna get backed up. 423 00:23:00,946 --> 00:23:05,284 And I haven't had any fat, really, this whole time. 424 00:23:05,317 --> 00:23:06,585 You know, there's some fat 425 00:23:06,685 --> 00:23:08,520 in fish and all that, but... 426 00:23:25,971 --> 00:23:28,674 And what do we have here? 427 00:23:28,674 --> 00:23:30,242 Those bear tracks? 428 00:23:31,477 --> 00:23:33,712 This looks like bear tracks there. 429 00:23:34,947 --> 00:23:37,549 So there is a freaking bear here. 430 00:23:37,650 --> 00:23:39,685 Got me excited. 431 00:23:39,718 --> 00:23:42,621 It would be extremely beneficial to harvest 432 00:23:42,721 --> 00:23:43,956 a black bear at this point. 433 00:23:43,989 --> 00:23:46,191 So that's gotta be black bear. 434 00:23:46,292 --> 00:23:49,628 If it were a grizzly, it'd be much, much larger. 435 00:23:49,662 --> 00:23:52,031 I know, at this time in the year, 436 00:23:52,064 --> 00:23:55,868 they're gonna have a amazing amount of fat on them. 437 00:23:55,901 --> 00:23:58,671 I know fat is what is gonna help me 438 00:23:58,704 --> 00:24:00,739 get through the winter. 439 00:24:03,976 --> 00:24:05,411 ♪ 440 00:24:06,812 --> 00:24:13,819 ♪ 441 00:24:15,354 --> 00:24:17,756 Lost his tracks back here. 442 00:24:17,756 --> 00:24:19,325 Gotta keep an eye out. 443 00:24:19,358 --> 00:24:22,928 I could get right on it with a bow shot. 444 00:24:23,963 --> 00:24:27,633 It would be amazing. It'd be good eating too. 445 00:24:27,666 --> 00:24:30,636 For thousands of years, Iñupiaq hunters 446 00:24:30,669 --> 00:24:33,439 would go out in order to harvest food 447 00:24:33,472 --> 00:24:36,875 for their families and their communities. 448 00:24:36,909 --> 00:24:39,845 ♪ 449 00:24:39,878 --> 00:24:42,748 If I was home right now, I would be looking 450 00:24:42,848 --> 00:24:44,883 for caribou and moose. 451 00:24:44,883 --> 00:24:46,952 ♪ 452 00:24:46,952 --> 00:24:49,788 My wife grew up the same way that I did, 453 00:24:49,822 --> 00:24:52,558 being at camp and doing similar things 454 00:24:52,558 --> 00:24:54,927 and same lifestyle. 455 00:24:54,960 --> 00:24:56,996 Camp is technically a second home, 456 00:24:56,996 --> 00:25:01,000 but it feels like a primary home to a lot of us. 457 00:25:01,033 --> 00:25:05,671 That's where we want to go to be Iñupiaq people 458 00:25:05,671 --> 00:25:07,373 and really do things within our culture 459 00:25:07,406 --> 00:25:11,310 that make us feel like real people. 460 00:25:11,343 --> 00:25:13,345 Our ancestors have grown up at these places 461 00:25:13,379 --> 00:25:15,080 and practiced the same traditions 462 00:25:15,114 --> 00:25:19,184 and taught our parents and grandparents all these things, 463 00:25:19,284 --> 00:25:22,154 and they eventually get handed down to us. 464 00:25:22,187 --> 00:25:24,156 It's really important. 465 00:25:24,189 --> 00:25:27,726 ♪ 466 00:25:30,729 --> 00:25:37,770 ♪ 467 00:25:39,471 --> 00:25:41,507 Yeah, 468 00:25:41,607 --> 00:25:42,608 it's a little discouraging, 469 00:25:42,641 --> 00:25:44,777 but still a lot of time. 470 00:25:44,877 --> 00:25:47,046 I know that this black bear fat 471 00:25:47,079 --> 00:25:48,514 will be extremely important. 472 00:25:48,514 --> 00:25:52,818 I'm hopeful that this bear is staying in my area. 473 00:25:52,851 --> 00:25:54,853 We'll see. 474 00:25:54,887 --> 00:25:55,888 ♪ 475 00:26:03,395 --> 00:26:06,198 [tense music] 476 00:26:06,231 --> 00:26:13,272 ♪ 477 00:26:15,941 --> 00:26:19,078 [Jacks] So have I shown you how to eat rose hips yet? 478 00:26:19,111 --> 00:26:21,447 You pluck one, all right. 479 00:26:21,447 --> 00:26:25,517 You can suck all the meat out, the part that meets the stem. 480 00:26:25,517 --> 00:26:27,853 Mmm, oh, yeah. 481 00:26:27,886 --> 00:26:30,289 And then... 482 00:26:30,322 --> 00:26:31,890 spit out the seeds. 483 00:26:40,365 --> 00:26:41,834 Mmm. 484 00:26:46,638 --> 00:26:48,707 Rose hips and sunshine. 485 00:26:48,807 --> 00:26:49,975 ♪ 486 00:26:50,075 --> 00:26:51,710 This is what I do every morning. 487 00:26:51,810 --> 00:26:53,612 ♪ 488 00:26:53,645 --> 00:26:55,247 This is my breakfast. 489 00:26:56,181 --> 00:26:59,518 I think today is gonna have to be a foraging day regardless. 490 00:26:59,551 --> 00:27:02,054 ♪ 491 00:27:02,087 --> 00:27:03,956 Ooh. 492 00:27:03,989 --> 00:27:07,192 Something--holy [bleep]-- 493 00:27:07,226 --> 00:27:08,961 has walked through here. 494 00:27:08,994 --> 00:27:14,967 ♪ 495 00:27:14,967 --> 00:27:18,036 That looks like... 496 00:27:18,036 --> 00:27:19,171 a cat. 497 00:27:19,204 --> 00:27:21,406 ♪ 498 00:27:21,406 --> 00:27:24,076 And... 499 00:27:24,076 --> 00:27:25,077 wow. 500 00:27:25,110 --> 00:27:28,180 ♪ 501 00:27:28,213 --> 00:27:30,682 Interesting. 502 00:27:30,716 --> 00:27:34,686 There is a lynx wandering around. 503 00:27:34,686 --> 00:27:37,356 Um... 504 00:27:37,389 --> 00:27:39,458 so I'm gonna shift gears and focus on 505 00:27:39,491 --> 00:27:42,394 getting a door on my shelter. 506 00:27:42,427 --> 00:27:45,197 I gotta get out of here. 507 00:27:45,230 --> 00:27:48,634 I need to make sure that I have a shelter 508 00:27:48,667 --> 00:27:51,136 that is going to keep me safe 509 00:27:51,170 --> 00:27:53,639 and protect me from predators. 510 00:27:53,672 --> 00:27:56,909 This is my only mission right now. 511 00:27:56,975 --> 00:27:59,444 ♪ 512 00:27:59,478 --> 00:28:04,149 All right, so we are going to measure the door. 513 00:28:05,617 --> 00:28:08,120 24 is the width. 514 00:28:10,322 --> 00:28:11,890 OK. 515 00:28:13,358 --> 00:28:15,794 Well, I got lucky. 516 00:28:15,827 --> 00:28:19,231 Turns out the door is a perfect square. 517 00:28:20,465 --> 00:28:24,236 So I'm gonna make a frame for it first. 518 00:28:29,474 --> 00:28:31,510 [saw scraping] 519 00:28:31,543 --> 00:28:34,846 I am not truly alone. 520 00:28:34,880 --> 00:28:36,949 There's predators here. 521 00:28:37,015 --> 00:28:40,919 ♪ 522 00:28:40,953 --> 00:28:43,589 Oh, no. Oh, perfect. 523 00:28:43,622 --> 00:28:45,624 ♪ 524 00:28:45,657 --> 00:28:47,526 You know, I've always feared the worst in life 525 00:28:47,559 --> 00:28:50,362 because the worst actually did happen to me. 526 00:28:50,395 --> 00:28:53,098 So going into this experience, 527 00:28:53,198 --> 00:28:56,435 that is something that I'm thinking about 528 00:28:56,468 --> 00:28:59,404 is worst-case scenario. 529 00:28:59,438 --> 00:29:03,675 ♪ 530 00:29:03,675 --> 00:29:05,444 I've been in positions in my life 531 00:29:05,477 --> 00:29:07,713 where my agency has been stolen. 532 00:29:07,746 --> 00:29:10,115 ♪ 533 00:29:10,148 --> 00:29:13,085 I know what it's like to be hunted. 534 00:29:13,085 --> 00:29:15,387 So yeah, being on high alert, 535 00:29:15,387 --> 00:29:17,956 knowing that there's predators out there 536 00:29:17,990 --> 00:29:19,925 is-- 537 00:29:19,958 --> 00:29:22,027 yeah, it's quite scary. 538 00:29:22,060 --> 00:29:23,795 ♪ 539 00:29:23,829 --> 00:29:25,364 [sighs] 540 00:29:25,364 --> 00:29:28,367 Well, I'm having a really hard time today. 541 00:29:30,669 --> 00:29:35,440 Being in this place where I am suffering 542 00:29:35,474 --> 00:29:37,442 is starting to remind me 543 00:29:37,476 --> 00:29:40,512 of when I lost my agency, when I lost control, 544 00:29:40,545 --> 00:29:43,548 when I was living in a dark place. 545 00:29:43,582 --> 00:29:46,918 And I don't want to go back there. 546 00:29:46,918 --> 00:29:48,787 I think I'm just gonna sit here. 547 00:29:48,887 --> 00:29:50,589 ♪ 548 00:29:50,622 --> 00:29:52,724 [exhales] 549 00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:59,164 21 years ago today, 550 00:29:59,197 --> 00:30:03,068 there was a young woman, 551 00:30:03,101 --> 00:30:05,537 19 years old... 552 00:30:08,206 --> 00:30:12,210 Just figuring out who she was, 553 00:30:12,244 --> 00:30:15,280 until one night, her world changed. 554 00:30:16,648 --> 00:30:19,184 She was walking home. 555 00:30:19,217 --> 00:30:23,855 And on her way home, she was kidnapped 556 00:30:23,889 --> 00:30:26,792 by two men 557 00:30:26,892 --> 00:30:30,162 who threw her into a car, 558 00:30:30,162 --> 00:30:33,732 held a gun to her head, 559 00:30:33,765 --> 00:30:38,036 took her to a park... 560 00:30:38,070 --> 00:30:40,272 where they beat her, 561 00:30:40,305 --> 00:30:42,641 they robbed her, 562 00:30:42,641 --> 00:30:45,444 and they raped her. 563 00:30:45,477 --> 00:30:50,349 They took their turns... 564 00:30:50,449 --> 00:30:53,919 destroying her 565 00:30:53,952 --> 00:30:58,290 before leaving her, abandoning her 566 00:30:58,323 --> 00:31:00,292 broken, 567 00:31:00,325 --> 00:31:03,562 beaten, and bloody. 568 00:31:03,595 --> 00:31:10,602 ♪ 569 00:31:12,671 --> 00:31:14,840 [breathes deeply] 570 00:31:14,873 --> 00:31:16,875 That woman was me. 571 00:31:18,877 --> 00:31:20,912 That little girl was me. 572 00:31:25,650 --> 00:31:27,953 And it's been 20 years. 573 00:31:28,053 --> 00:31:31,723 ♪ 574 00:31:31,757 --> 00:31:34,559 And you can never move on from that experience, 575 00:31:34,559 --> 00:31:36,628 but there is a way to move forward. 576 00:31:36,728 --> 00:31:41,266 ♪ 577 00:31:41,366 --> 00:31:45,604 It wasn't until I started to lean into nature 578 00:31:45,604 --> 00:31:48,140 that I found that I could heal. 579 00:31:49,608 --> 00:31:52,411 I dipped a toe into spirituality 580 00:31:52,444 --> 00:31:54,112 and therapy and nature. 581 00:31:54,146 --> 00:31:55,680 With those three things combined, 582 00:31:55,714 --> 00:31:59,518 I found a path 583 00:31:59,551 --> 00:32:02,554 to feeling that I belonged. 584 00:32:02,587 --> 00:32:04,723 ♪ 585 00:32:04,756 --> 00:32:06,958 Nature taught me that. 586 00:32:08,326 --> 00:32:11,096 Nature taught me that I belonged on this planet. 587 00:32:11,129 --> 00:32:12,898 So I studied it. 588 00:32:14,666 --> 00:32:16,067 Studied navigation, 589 00:32:16,101 --> 00:32:18,603 studied fire, studied plants. 590 00:32:18,637 --> 00:32:21,840 If I could protect myself 591 00:32:21,840 --> 00:32:23,141 and not let fear 592 00:32:23,175 --> 00:32:25,610 prevent me from having a joyous life... 593 00:32:25,644 --> 00:32:30,048 ♪ 594 00:32:30,081 --> 00:32:33,518 Then that's what I was going to do 595 00:32:33,518 --> 00:32:35,954 so I could become fearless again. 596 00:32:35,987 --> 00:32:37,923 ♪ 597 00:32:37,956 --> 00:32:42,494 I'm proud of myself for doing this, 598 00:32:42,527 --> 00:32:45,997 for taking on this challenge. 599 00:32:45,997 --> 00:32:51,436 ♪ 600 00:32:51,470 --> 00:32:54,172 Let's go kick some ass. 601 00:32:54,206 --> 00:32:56,775 ♪ 602 00:32:56,808 --> 00:32:58,877 I got a lot of work to do. 603 00:32:58,910 --> 00:33:03,048 ♪ 604 00:33:03,081 --> 00:33:04,282 [chuckles] 605 00:33:14,693 --> 00:33:17,596 [tense music] 606 00:33:17,629 --> 00:33:24,669 ♪ 607 00:33:26,004 --> 00:33:27,672 [Aaron] We got ourselves a bunny. 608 00:33:32,177 --> 00:33:35,046 Oh, he's [bleep] alive again. 609 00:33:40,418 --> 00:33:41,686 Sorry, buddy. 610 00:33:41,720 --> 00:33:42,721 Oh! 611 00:33:45,724 --> 00:33:47,759 My God! 612 00:33:53,398 --> 00:33:56,501 [laughs] 613 00:33:56,601 --> 00:34:00,472 Are you kidding me? 614 00:34:00,572 --> 00:34:07,512 ♪ 615 00:34:07,546 --> 00:34:09,147 [laughs] 616 00:34:09,179 --> 00:34:12,751 What is happening to me? 617 00:34:12,851 --> 00:34:15,487 It's like in golf, they call it the yips. 618 00:34:16,721 --> 00:34:20,058 Like when you, uh, 619 00:34:20,091 --> 00:34:22,726 just can't do anything. 620 00:34:22,761 --> 00:34:25,030 I think I got a case of the yips here. 621 00:34:27,498 --> 00:34:31,168 These snares too, like, I don't know-- 622 00:34:31,202 --> 00:34:35,407 clearly, I'm not putting 'em on good enough, but 623 00:34:35,440 --> 00:34:37,641 this is sad, man. 624 00:34:39,444 --> 00:34:41,313 I tend to be a pretty positive person, 625 00:34:41,346 --> 00:34:43,882 but we're in the dumps right now, boy. 626 00:34:43,915 --> 00:34:45,917 Beaver's not back. 627 00:34:45,951 --> 00:34:50,322 He didn't even fix his dam, so I don't know 628 00:34:50,322 --> 00:34:52,324 if the lynx got him or what, 629 00:34:52,357 --> 00:34:55,927 but we'll leave these up and come check 'em tomorrow. 630 00:34:55,960 --> 00:34:58,997 Oh, man, I'm not having a good day. 631 00:34:59,030 --> 00:35:02,233 My mind is trying to give me ways out 632 00:35:02,267 --> 00:35:05,203 that doesn't make me look like I quit. 633 00:35:05,203 --> 00:35:07,606 [bleep] like this is making me want to go home, 634 00:35:07,639 --> 00:35:10,675 but I'm not gonna. 635 00:35:10,675 --> 00:35:13,211 Let's go check the rest of the site. 636 00:35:13,244 --> 00:35:14,946 I might be crazy, but I'm sitting there 637 00:35:14,980 --> 00:35:17,082 just arguing with myself like, shut up, man. 638 00:35:17,115 --> 00:35:19,351 You're not doing that. 639 00:35:19,384 --> 00:35:21,486 Won a lot of fights in your life, weak mind, 640 00:35:21,519 --> 00:35:22,921 but not this one. 641 00:35:24,556 --> 00:35:26,758 [whispers] I could be on my couch in 642 00:35:26,791 --> 00:35:29,794 like... [chuckles] 643 00:35:29,828 --> 00:35:32,364 in not long, if I wanted to. 644 00:35:32,397 --> 00:35:36,635 I could be eating pizza not long if I wanted to. 645 00:35:36,668 --> 00:35:40,372 All you have to do is give up on your dreams. 646 00:35:40,405 --> 00:35:44,409 How? Like, it's so crazy to think. 647 00:35:44,442 --> 00:35:46,745 ♪ 648 00:35:46,845 --> 00:35:50,281 It's like a carrot dangling in front of your face. 649 00:35:51,683 --> 00:35:53,918 It's the same--like, that's how I think about it, 650 00:35:53,952 --> 00:35:56,721 the same as smoking. 651 00:35:56,755 --> 00:35:58,156 Like, when I quit smoking, 652 00:35:58,156 --> 00:36:01,493 it was so hard because I could literally 653 00:36:01,526 --> 00:36:06,031 fix the craving in seconds. 654 00:36:06,131 --> 00:36:10,468 But you'd have to give up on all the progress you made. 655 00:36:10,568 --> 00:36:13,638 ♪ 656 00:36:13,638 --> 00:36:16,241 It's so-- it's just crazy. 657 00:36:16,274 --> 00:36:17,308 ♪ 658 00:36:22,113 --> 00:36:24,683 ♪ 659 00:36:24,716 --> 00:36:28,119 This is the craziest thing a person can do. 660 00:36:28,153 --> 00:36:31,823 You have to be well-rounded with mental toughness. 661 00:36:31,856 --> 00:36:33,291 But I fought mixed martial arts. 662 00:36:33,324 --> 00:36:34,426 I've played rugby. 663 00:36:34,459 --> 00:36:36,728 I've played pretty crazy sports. 664 00:36:36,761 --> 00:36:41,332 Any physical activity that I do is hard mentally. 665 00:36:42,567 --> 00:36:44,469 Found some more moose tracks. 666 00:36:44,569 --> 00:36:46,805 ♪ 667 00:36:46,838 --> 00:36:50,008 This is what I work in. This is what I grew up in. 668 00:36:50,041 --> 00:36:52,477 This is my advantage. 669 00:36:52,510 --> 00:36:54,913 I must just be missing this guy, man. 670 00:36:54,946 --> 00:36:57,248 I can't lose. I shouldn't lose. 671 00:36:57,282 --> 00:36:59,317 I don't know if it's the same moose or what, 672 00:36:59,317 --> 00:37:02,520 but it went right through here. 673 00:37:02,554 --> 00:37:05,523 [footsteps crunching] 674 00:37:12,030 --> 00:37:15,567 We want him to come back to here. 675 00:37:15,600 --> 00:37:18,570 This is the perfect shooting spot. 676 00:37:24,909 --> 00:37:27,912 [imitating moose call] 677 00:37:34,119 --> 00:37:38,089 If we get a moose, I'll have all the fat, all the food. 678 00:37:38,123 --> 00:37:41,726 We can ride this out till we win. 679 00:37:41,760 --> 00:37:44,796 [imitating moose call] 680 00:38:01,212 --> 00:38:02,347 [bleep]. 681 00:38:10,488 --> 00:38:17,495 ♪ 682 00:38:36,848 --> 00:38:39,884 [steady breathing] 683 00:38:43,788 --> 00:38:44,856 [bow snaps] 684 00:38:48,560 --> 00:38:50,829 [tense music] 685 00:38:50,829 --> 00:38:53,765 ♪ 686 00:38:53,798 --> 00:38:55,266 [bow snaps] 687 00:38:55,366 --> 00:38:57,335 [Aaron] [bleep]. 688 00:39:15,753 --> 00:39:18,790 [imitating moose call] 689 00:39:22,160 --> 00:39:28,766 [imitating moose grunts] 690 00:39:41,312 --> 00:39:43,248 [Aaron] I shouldn't even be shooting at a moose 691 00:39:43,281 --> 00:39:46,684 with only one broadhead anyway, but 692 00:39:46,684 --> 00:39:49,053 I'm taking chances. 693 00:39:49,087 --> 00:39:50,755 They're not paying off. 694 00:39:50,788 --> 00:39:55,126 ♪ 695 00:40:05,403 --> 00:40:10,008 ♪ 696 00:40:10,041 --> 00:40:12,010 We're gonna back out here. 697 00:40:12,043 --> 00:40:14,512 ♪ 698 00:40:14,612 --> 00:40:16,447 [chuckles] 699 00:40:16,481 --> 00:40:19,550 I can't believe I just missed. 700 00:40:19,584 --> 00:40:24,255 The arrow hit a tree right in front of him. 701 00:40:24,289 --> 00:40:26,524 I missed by 2 inches. 702 00:40:26,557 --> 00:40:29,427 And, man, is it ever devastating. 703 00:40:29,494 --> 00:40:33,798 ♪ 704 00:40:33,831 --> 00:40:35,800 Perfect setup. 705 00:40:35,833 --> 00:40:38,136 ♪ 706 00:40:38,169 --> 00:40:40,171 How the-- 707 00:40:40,204 --> 00:40:43,308 ♪ 708 00:40:43,408 --> 00:40:47,078 Oh, my God. He was standing right here. 709 00:40:47,111 --> 00:40:50,715 I had that lane. 710 00:40:50,748 --> 00:40:54,052 Oh, my God. 711 00:40:54,085 --> 00:40:56,788 I should [bleep] quit. 712 00:40:57,689 --> 00:40:59,791 I'm feeling like the moose is slipping away. 713 00:40:59,824 --> 00:41:01,926 I don't got a chance. I don't got broadheads. 714 00:41:01,960 --> 00:41:03,828 I got to find another arrow and a broadhead, 715 00:41:03,861 --> 00:41:06,264 and hopefully I can get another opportunity. 716 00:41:06,297 --> 00:41:09,467 Because this is-- this is not good. 717 00:41:09,500 --> 00:41:11,002 ♪ 718 00:41:11,035 --> 00:41:13,671 I'm so sad right now. 719 00:41:13,705 --> 00:41:16,708 I just missed the moose at 20 yards. 720 00:41:16,808 --> 00:41:18,409 I didn't take a follow-up shot 721 00:41:18,443 --> 00:41:20,445 because I don't have a broadhead with me. 722 00:41:21,846 --> 00:41:24,449 This is so embarrassing, man. 723 00:41:26,684 --> 00:41:28,186 It is what it is. 724 00:41:28,286 --> 00:41:29,787 I'm not gonna beat myself-- 725 00:41:29,821 --> 00:41:31,723 I'm gonna beat the [bleep] out of myself about it, 726 00:41:31,723 --> 00:41:34,625 but it is what it is. 727 00:41:34,726 --> 00:41:36,594 I can't rewind time. 728 00:41:36,627 --> 00:41:38,963 Timber missed a moose, and he got it. 729 00:41:40,231 --> 00:41:42,967 It's a sad day, though, boy. 730 00:41:44,002 --> 00:41:47,338 That moose was essentially the win. 731 00:41:47,372 --> 00:41:49,007 ♪ 732 00:41:49,040 --> 00:41:50,641 What a greasy move. 733 00:41:50,675 --> 00:41:54,245 Mother nature, what a greasy move. 734 00:41:54,278 --> 00:42:01,285 ♪ 735 00:42:12,830 --> 00:42:15,533 [Jacks] Ta-da! 736 00:42:17,402 --> 00:42:20,238 The door shuts, blocks most of the wind. 737 00:42:20,238 --> 00:42:22,774 I am safe from predators. 738 00:42:22,807 --> 00:42:25,576 So we're chinking the shelter today. 739 00:42:25,610 --> 00:42:29,447 I have all this mud from the shoreline. 740 00:42:30,915 --> 00:42:33,251 Let's go and do this before the mud refreezes. 741 00:42:35,353 --> 00:42:37,121 Holy. 742 00:42:38,723 --> 00:42:40,391 Whoa. Alrighty. 743 00:42:40,491 --> 00:42:42,560 Steady as we go. 744 00:42:42,593 --> 00:42:45,229 Ah, steady. 745 00:42:45,296 --> 00:42:47,598 ♪ 746 00:42:47,598 --> 00:42:48,599 [grunts] 747 00:42:50,468 --> 00:42:53,171 The sun was able to melt some of it, 748 00:42:53,204 --> 00:42:55,206 enough for me to be able to collect it. 749 00:42:56,674 --> 00:42:59,811 [sighs] The problem is 750 00:42:59,844 --> 00:43:02,213 mud's really heavy, 751 00:43:02,246 --> 00:43:03,915 like, really heavy. 752 00:43:05,349 --> 00:43:08,386 I'm starting to realize that sustaining 753 00:43:08,486 --> 00:43:11,956 out here for the long term is a serious gamble 754 00:43:11,989 --> 00:43:13,991 and a lot of work. 755 00:43:14,025 --> 00:43:17,662 While I may not be thriving, I'm still doing it. 756 00:43:17,695 --> 00:43:19,363 You know? I've got berries. 757 00:43:19,397 --> 00:43:20,698 I've got plants. 758 00:43:20,798 --> 00:43:23,267 But I'd like to be doing better. 759 00:43:23,301 --> 00:43:25,870 Alrighty. 760 00:43:25,903 --> 00:43:28,206 I have no idea how much mud it's gonna take 761 00:43:28,239 --> 00:43:30,641 to chink this shelter, 762 00:43:30,641 --> 00:43:33,111 but we're about to find out. 763 00:43:34,946 --> 00:43:38,649 You know, in trauma recovery, there are three Rs 764 00:43:38,683 --> 00:43:40,685 that aid in trauma recovery. 765 00:43:40,718 --> 00:43:43,754 And one is rhythms. 766 00:43:43,788 --> 00:43:45,590 The other is relationships. 767 00:43:45,623 --> 00:43:47,592 And the third is reward. 768 00:43:47,692 --> 00:43:52,029 Wow, I'm really enjoying this. [chuckles] 769 00:43:52,130 --> 00:43:53,331 I'm really enjoying it. 770 00:43:53,364 --> 00:43:56,000 It's, like, really therapeutic. 771 00:43:56,033 --> 00:43:58,803 Things that have repetition 772 00:43:58,836 --> 00:44:02,039 actually can help recalibrate our emotional states 773 00:44:02,073 --> 00:44:03,608 in our brains. 774 00:44:03,641 --> 00:44:05,076 ♪ 775 00:44:05,109 --> 00:44:08,112 This might not be one of those jobs you can do in a day. 776 00:44:08,146 --> 00:44:10,047 ♪ 777 00:44:10,081 --> 00:44:14,118 The repetition and the rhythm actually calm my mind. 778 00:44:14,152 --> 00:44:16,687 ♪ 779 00:44:16,721 --> 00:44:20,324 There were times where I thought that living 780 00:44:20,358 --> 00:44:22,026 in trauma was my life. 781 00:44:22,126 --> 00:44:25,062 There was nothing past it. 782 00:44:25,163 --> 00:44:26,964 It was my relationship to the outdoors 783 00:44:26,998 --> 00:44:30,034 that helped me to navigate through that trauma. 784 00:44:30,067 --> 00:44:31,669 Oh, yeah. 785 00:44:31,702 --> 00:44:33,404 This is awesome. 786 00:44:33,437 --> 00:44:35,439 Awesome! 787 00:44:35,473 --> 00:44:37,975 This is good 788 00:44:38,009 --> 00:44:39,143 for today. 789 00:44:39,243 --> 00:44:40,478 [sighs] 790 00:44:40,511 --> 00:44:42,747 I'm pretty hungry. 791 00:44:42,847 --> 00:44:45,950 I'm gonna go check my traps over there. 792 00:44:46,050 --> 00:44:48,886 ♪ 793 00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:51,656 Wow, my mood's really changed today. 794 00:44:51,689 --> 00:44:52,823 I don't know. 795 00:44:52,857 --> 00:44:55,159 I'm in a new state of mind today. 796 00:44:55,193 --> 00:44:57,795 I'm feeling really good today and optimistic, 797 00:44:57,828 --> 00:45:02,800 and, like, my curiosity is just alive right now, 798 00:45:02,833 --> 00:45:06,037 and all I want to do is go explore. 799 00:45:06,070 --> 00:45:09,674 My first solo hike was 800 00:45:09,707 --> 00:45:11,976 the Laugavegur trail in Iceland. 801 00:45:12,076 --> 00:45:15,580 This was my first time where I got to take the skills 802 00:45:15,680 --> 00:45:17,715 that I, at that point, had only learned 803 00:45:17,748 --> 00:45:21,152 on my own and really test them. 804 00:45:21,185 --> 00:45:23,187 There seems to be quite a few tracks, 805 00:45:23,221 --> 00:45:27,558 so this is good. 806 00:45:27,592 --> 00:45:29,760 So day one, when I was in Iceland, 807 00:45:29,794 --> 00:45:32,063 I was in an earthquake, witnessed an avalanche, 808 00:45:32,163 --> 00:45:33,431 and I fell in a crevasse. 809 00:45:33,464 --> 00:45:36,400 Everything terrible that could possibly happen 810 00:45:36,434 --> 00:45:38,035 actually happened. 811 00:45:38,069 --> 00:45:39,237 See, look at that. 812 00:45:39,270 --> 00:45:41,372 Look at all the traffic right there. 813 00:45:42,807 --> 00:45:44,508 Wow. 814 00:45:44,609 --> 00:45:46,077 But it was huge for me. 815 00:45:46,110 --> 00:45:48,779 That's what really, really helped 816 00:45:48,879 --> 00:45:51,682 strengthen my relationship with my body 817 00:45:51,716 --> 00:45:54,485 and to have it back. 818 00:45:56,487 --> 00:45:58,522 Oh, he's in my snare. 819 00:45:58,556 --> 00:45:59,523 All right. 820 00:45:59,557 --> 00:46:02,693 Well, today is a good [bleep] day. 821 00:46:03,894 --> 00:46:05,997 I caught a hare. 822 00:46:06,030 --> 00:46:08,132 Hey, buddy. 823 00:46:11,636 --> 00:46:15,006 Let's go back and process this guy. 824 00:46:15,039 --> 00:46:19,677 ♪ 825 00:46:19,677 --> 00:46:22,313 Nature has this incredible ability 826 00:46:22,413 --> 00:46:24,882 to give you the answers 827 00:46:24,915 --> 00:46:26,884 to what you're looking for in life. 828 00:46:26,917 --> 00:46:28,419 I'm sorry. 829 00:46:29,720 --> 00:46:31,489 Thank you for your life. 830 00:46:31,522 --> 00:46:33,591 Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 831 00:46:33,624 --> 00:46:37,395 Survival skills saved my life in more ways than one. 832 00:46:37,428 --> 00:46:38,996 ♪ 833 00:46:39,030 --> 00:46:41,966 It's what helped me to heal. 834 00:46:41,966 --> 00:46:45,303 If my journey can help somebody else, 835 00:46:45,336 --> 00:46:46,971 and nobody has to walk the path 836 00:46:47,004 --> 00:46:49,674 that I've been through in my life 837 00:46:49,674 --> 00:46:52,643 living in a state of suffering, 838 00:46:52,677 --> 00:46:55,046 if I can change one person's life 839 00:46:55,079 --> 00:46:56,781 and say, "Hey, did you ever think 840 00:46:56,881 --> 00:46:58,883 "about leaning into nature? 841 00:46:58,916 --> 00:47:00,351 "Let me show you 842 00:47:00,384 --> 00:47:03,154 what it can do and how it can change your life," 843 00:47:03,187 --> 00:47:05,890 then... 844 00:47:05,923 --> 00:47:08,359 that would make all of this worth it. 845 00:47:08,392 --> 00:47:10,194 It would make all my pain and suffering worth it, 846 00:47:10,194 --> 00:47:12,163 to help others, 847 00:47:12,163 --> 00:47:14,865 show them that there is another way. 848 00:47:14,965 --> 00:47:16,200 [breathes deeply] 849 00:47:16,233 --> 00:47:18,235 Thank you, universe, for this meal. 850 00:47:29,180 --> 00:47:31,115 I feel like a whole other person right now. 851 00:47:31,148 --> 00:47:32,683 Oh. 852 00:47:35,052 --> 00:47:37,488 Got a rabbit brain roasting on some coals. 853 00:47:40,191 --> 00:47:43,794 Got rabbit blood all over my hands and all over my pants. 854 00:47:43,828 --> 00:47:46,564 I can feel my body being replenished. 855 00:47:50,835 --> 00:47:52,670 I finally feel like I've become 856 00:47:52,703 --> 00:47:54,605 the person I'm supposed to be. 857 00:47:54,638 --> 00:47:58,275 ♪ 858 00:47:58,309 --> 00:48:01,278 It's a beautiful day. 859 00:48:01,312 --> 00:48:04,915 Nature has definitely allowed me to develop 860 00:48:04,915 --> 00:48:09,520 a connection with who I call my authentic self, 861 00:48:09,553 --> 00:48:11,355 who Jacks really is. 862 00:48:11,389 --> 00:48:14,992 You know, that person hides a lot. 863 00:48:17,595 --> 00:48:24,034 And so in nature, that person gets to be free. 864 00:48:31,609 --> 00:48:34,445 [tense music] 865 00:48:34,478 --> 00:48:41,519 ♪ 866 00:48:43,421 --> 00:48:45,523 [Nero] Eagle footage. 867 00:48:48,959 --> 00:48:51,662 Do something, eagle, for me. 868 00:48:51,762 --> 00:48:53,597 Fly away or something. 869 00:48:55,199 --> 00:48:56,767 It's a good reminder. 870 00:48:56,801 --> 00:49:00,805 I gotta put the food away. 871 00:49:00,838 --> 00:49:03,240 Keep it away from scavengers. 872 00:49:06,477 --> 00:49:08,679 Damn. 873 00:49:08,712 --> 00:49:12,249 I'm gonna work on the food caches this afternoon. 874 00:49:12,283 --> 00:49:14,618 So I'm gonna make a fourth one. 875 00:49:14,652 --> 00:49:18,155 I'm gonna try and make it out of one of the beaver pelts. 876 00:49:18,155 --> 00:49:20,724 Get it set up. See if it works. 877 00:49:20,758 --> 00:49:25,729 ♪ 878 00:49:25,763 --> 00:49:27,431 I'm really happy with the layout 879 00:49:27,531 --> 00:49:29,233 and the setup with my shelter. 880 00:49:29,266 --> 00:49:32,603 I've got food to last a long time 881 00:49:32,636 --> 00:49:34,038 and need to better preserve it 882 00:49:34,071 --> 00:49:35,940 and make sure that it doesn't go off. 883 00:49:35,973 --> 00:49:39,677 Right now, it's about 884 00:49:39,710 --> 00:49:41,178 storing food. 885 00:49:41,278 --> 00:49:43,514 But I'm starting to learn that I can really just 886 00:49:43,547 --> 00:49:45,549 start to sink into this experience 887 00:49:45,583 --> 00:49:48,152 with the confidence that everything's working for me. 888 00:49:48,252 --> 00:49:51,455 Let's get that beaver pelt into a bit of a bag. 889 00:49:53,591 --> 00:49:57,595 So the question is, how do I want to do it. 890 00:50:00,865 --> 00:50:03,634 I've got paracord there, punch holes is there, 891 00:50:03,667 --> 00:50:05,135 there, there, and there. 892 00:50:05,169 --> 00:50:08,272 And then just have the rope which comes through 893 00:50:08,372 --> 00:50:11,375 and brings them together. 894 00:50:13,244 --> 00:50:19,750 ♪ 895 00:50:19,750 --> 00:50:21,418 It feels really good to be able to come back 896 00:50:21,452 --> 00:50:26,957 to my shelter and just recharge and regather myself. 897 00:50:26,991 --> 00:50:31,028 And it feels like home. 898 00:50:31,061 --> 00:50:34,265 I think, psychologically, you know, us humans, 899 00:50:34,365 --> 00:50:39,637 we need a place to call home and having connection. 900 00:50:39,670 --> 00:50:42,306 We talk a lot about connection. 901 00:50:42,339 --> 00:50:44,875 I think all Australians find it, 902 00:50:44,875 --> 00:50:49,013 in some way, difficult to be connected to land. 903 00:50:49,046 --> 00:50:50,347 ♪ 904 00:50:50,381 --> 00:50:53,717 Australia's got this weird sort of conundrum 905 00:50:53,751 --> 00:50:56,153 where we want to be connected 906 00:50:56,186 --> 00:50:58,455 to our land and to our country, 907 00:50:58,556 --> 00:51:02,126 but because of our past, there's a bit of a stigma 908 00:51:02,159 --> 00:51:04,728 that we can't be connected to land. 909 00:51:04,762 --> 00:51:06,630 ♪ 910 00:51:06,664 --> 00:51:10,568 With colonialism, we came into Australia 911 00:51:10,601 --> 00:51:12,236 as an invader. 912 00:51:12,236 --> 00:51:16,206 ♪ 913 00:51:16,240 --> 00:51:18,909 And we've pushed the First Nations people 914 00:51:18,909 --> 00:51:20,711 up in the northern parts of Australia. 915 00:51:22,313 --> 00:51:24,281 So they don't have their land anymore. 916 00:51:24,315 --> 00:51:26,350 But now we've come onto this land. 917 00:51:26,350 --> 00:51:28,919 We have all of this history and guilt 918 00:51:28,919 --> 00:51:31,355 with what we've done in the past. 919 00:51:31,355 --> 00:51:32,923 And so therefore, we don't feel like 920 00:51:32,957 --> 00:51:35,926 we have the right to have connection to that land. 921 00:51:35,960 --> 00:51:38,963 So Australia is this place with a whole bunch of people 922 00:51:38,963 --> 00:51:41,765 and not really anybody connected to the land. 923 00:51:41,799 --> 00:51:43,834 She ain't pretty, but... 924 00:51:43,834 --> 00:51:47,004 ♪ 925 00:51:47,037 --> 00:51:48,772 She'll hold some food. 926 00:51:48,806 --> 00:51:50,240 And I think that's something that 927 00:51:50,274 --> 00:51:51,875 we really need to try and come together 928 00:51:51,909 --> 00:51:53,844 and work through. 929 00:51:53,844 --> 00:51:57,281 Beaver naturally goes in beaver cache. 930 00:51:57,314 --> 00:51:59,783 When I first came to the delta, 931 00:51:59,883 --> 00:52:02,086 I had these expectations and these ideas 932 00:52:02,119 --> 00:52:05,990 of how I thought it should be. 933 00:52:05,990 --> 00:52:09,360 And I was really resistant at first. 934 00:52:09,360 --> 00:52:11,328 Nice and high. 935 00:52:11,362 --> 00:52:12,763 ♪ 936 00:52:12,796 --> 00:52:14,999 It's taken me a while, but finally, 937 00:52:15,032 --> 00:52:18,769 I'm really feeling like I'm meant to be here. 938 00:52:18,802 --> 00:52:20,804 The land wants me to be here. 939 00:52:20,838 --> 00:52:23,240 ♪ 940 00:52:23,273 --> 00:52:25,809 And the more that I spend time, 941 00:52:25,843 --> 00:52:27,478 the more that gets reinforced, 942 00:52:27,511 --> 00:52:30,814 and the better and deeper my relationship 943 00:52:30,848 --> 00:52:32,883 with the land becomes. 944 00:52:35,519 --> 00:52:38,422 Sunset over the mountains. 945 00:52:38,522 --> 00:52:39,857 Beautiful. 946 00:52:44,595 --> 00:52:48,432 Feels so surreal to be here sometimes 947 00:52:48,532 --> 00:52:51,235 on this journey, 948 00:52:51,235 --> 00:52:53,437 out here on this land. 949 00:52:53,470 --> 00:53:00,544 ♪ 950 00:53:01,078 --> 00:53:03,514 And I'm grateful for this place. 951 00:53:05,015 --> 00:53:08,352 It's given me life. It's sustaining me. 952 00:53:08,452 --> 00:53:13,157 ♪ 953 00:53:13,190 --> 00:53:15,592 I'm becoming a part of this place. 954 00:53:15,659 --> 00:53:19,363 ♪ 955 00:53:19,396 --> 00:53:21,799 And it's becoming a part of me. 956 00:53:21,799 --> 00:53:28,806 ♪ 957 00:53:48,525 --> 00:53:52,162 [Will] I finished up my carvings. 958 00:53:52,162 --> 00:53:55,599 We got a little spoon set here. 959 00:53:55,632 --> 00:54:00,237 This one is for Cassie, Inukuk. 960 00:54:00,270 --> 00:54:04,108 And we have a little bit smaller of a spoon. 961 00:54:04,208 --> 00:54:07,911 This is for Willow. She's a middle-aged girl. 962 00:54:07,945 --> 00:54:09,446 We got the middle-aged spoon. 963 00:54:09,446 --> 00:54:12,349 And then... 964 00:54:12,382 --> 00:54:13,717 my baby, 965 00:54:13,751 --> 00:54:15,753 baby of the house, Taliiraq, 966 00:54:15,853 --> 00:54:17,721 Kenna Rose. 967 00:54:17,721 --> 00:54:21,759 [speaks Iñupiaq] Spoon for the baby. 968 00:54:21,792 --> 00:54:24,495 Baby spoon for the baby. 969 00:54:24,528 --> 00:54:27,598 My son... 970 00:54:27,631 --> 00:54:30,968 he's getting the action figure. 971 00:54:31,001 --> 00:54:34,138 "Alone," Season 13 972 00:54:34,171 --> 00:54:35,973 little figure. 973 00:54:36,006 --> 00:54:39,476 So I could just see my kids loving them 974 00:54:39,510 --> 00:54:42,312 and enjoy using them. I know they will. 975 00:54:42,346 --> 00:54:45,048 ♪ 976 00:54:45,082 --> 00:54:49,720 So right now I'm gonna try to check the snares. 977 00:54:49,720 --> 00:54:52,556 ♪ 978 00:54:52,589 --> 00:54:55,659 I still haven't pooped. 979 00:54:55,759 --> 00:54:58,462 Drank almost two quarts of tilaaqiaq, 980 00:54:58,562 --> 00:55:00,197 Labrador tea, 981 00:55:00,230 --> 00:55:03,000 just trying to get some type of poop out of me. 982 00:55:03,033 --> 00:55:05,736 Set more snares yesterday. 983 00:55:05,769 --> 00:55:07,805 I got plenty out now. 984 00:55:07,838 --> 00:55:10,541 I'm still eating enough to where I'd have to poop, 985 00:55:10,641 --> 00:55:12,442 though, you'd think. 986 00:55:12,442 --> 00:55:14,878 I don't know if that means I'm clogged up or what, 987 00:55:14,912 --> 00:55:17,815 but I'm getting kind of worried. 988 00:55:17,915 --> 00:55:21,118 I have a fear that my stomach can tear open, 989 00:55:21,151 --> 00:55:24,154 my intestine could tear open. 990 00:55:24,188 --> 00:55:25,956 Well, you got a rabbit. 991 00:55:25,989 --> 00:55:28,091 One ukalaitchaq here. 992 00:55:28,125 --> 00:55:30,394 Leave him right there 'cause we'll be back. 993 00:55:30,394 --> 00:55:32,196 ♪ 994 00:55:32,196 --> 00:55:35,199 I want to keep going. Like, my mind loves it here. 995 00:55:35,199 --> 00:55:36,500 I could stay. 996 00:55:36,533 --> 00:55:38,902 But at what cost? 997 00:55:39,002 --> 00:55:42,973 Like, at the cost of totally messing up my body, 998 00:55:43,006 --> 00:55:46,410 getting sepsis, and dying? 999 00:55:46,443 --> 00:55:50,280 Ukalaitchaq here. Yeah. 1000 00:55:50,280 --> 00:55:52,416 Living off of rabbit and fish, 1001 00:55:52,516 --> 00:55:54,685 and I can't really eat either right now. 1002 00:55:54,718 --> 00:55:56,420 Like, I just don't have the appetite 1003 00:55:56,453 --> 00:55:59,156 to eat rabbit or fish. 1004 00:55:59,156 --> 00:56:01,391 I hate to sound like a picky baby. 1005 00:56:01,425 --> 00:56:03,393 I'm not picky with my food at all. 1006 00:56:03,427 --> 00:56:05,896 There's almost nothing I won't eat. 1007 00:56:05,929 --> 00:56:09,499 Last one here. This is fresh too. 1008 00:56:09,533 --> 00:56:12,803 Oh, baby got chewed up a little bit. 1009 00:56:12,836 --> 00:56:15,873 I want to be here. Like, I don't want to go. 1010 00:56:15,906 --> 00:56:20,744 But I also don't want my kids to go without a father 1011 00:56:20,844 --> 00:56:22,913 for the rest of their lives. 1012 00:56:23,013 --> 00:56:25,482 ♪ 1013 00:56:25,515 --> 00:56:28,819 A black bear walking through my backyard again. 1014 00:56:28,852 --> 00:56:32,856 He came all the way down the riverbank. 1015 00:56:32,890 --> 00:56:36,994 Came up right here next to my shelter. 1016 00:56:36,994 --> 00:56:38,195 I'm not too sure where it went. 1017 00:56:38,228 --> 00:56:40,030 It might be back, and I'll be ready. 1018 00:56:40,063 --> 00:56:41,999 I got the bow and arrow. 1019 00:56:41,999 --> 00:56:42,966 ♪ 1020 00:56:42,966 --> 00:56:44,968 Keep an eye out. 1021 00:56:45,002 --> 00:56:47,471 ♪ 1022 00:56:47,471 --> 00:56:49,406 I am still in this competition, 1023 00:56:49,439 --> 00:56:51,875 mentally and spiritually. 1024 00:56:51,875 --> 00:56:55,479 My body is giving up, but I realize that 1025 00:56:55,512 --> 00:56:58,815 there's a chance for that black bear. 1026 00:56:58,849 --> 00:57:02,519 Best rabbit day ever. 1027 00:57:02,552 --> 00:57:05,555 ♪ 1028 00:57:09,693 --> 00:57:12,596 [tense music] 1029 00:57:12,629 --> 00:57:19,670 ♪ 1030 00:57:24,107 --> 00:57:26,143 [Will] Just kind of laid in bed all morning, 1031 00:57:26,243 --> 00:57:29,713 and, uh, I could just lay in bed all day 1032 00:57:29,746 --> 00:57:32,950 if I want to, 1033 00:57:33,050 --> 00:57:35,552 which is what I might just do. 1034 00:57:35,585 --> 00:57:37,521 We'll see. 1035 00:57:37,521 --> 00:57:41,959 I just feel like my mind and 1036 00:57:41,992 --> 00:57:47,564 my spirit just can be here for the rest of the winter. 1037 00:57:47,564 --> 00:57:52,302 But right now, my body can't, just because 1038 00:57:52,402 --> 00:57:56,039 it's unable to accept food. 1039 00:57:56,073 --> 00:57:58,442 ♪ 1040 00:57:58,442 --> 00:58:01,745 And you need food for energy. 1041 00:58:01,845 --> 00:58:05,549 You know, if I stay longer and longer and longer, 1042 00:58:05,582 --> 00:58:07,784 could be doing irreversible damage 1043 00:58:07,884 --> 00:58:11,722 to my body and my digestive system 1044 00:58:11,755 --> 00:58:14,191 and who knows what else. 1045 00:58:14,224 --> 00:58:16,626 Maybe my heart. 1046 00:58:16,727 --> 00:58:20,364 And that's all not worth winning this 1047 00:58:20,364 --> 00:58:23,367 and worth half a million bucks. 1048 00:58:23,400 --> 00:58:30,440 ♪ 1049 00:58:36,513 --> 00:58:39,383 [sighs] 1050 00:58:39,483 --> 00:58:42,686 Can't believe I'm doing this. 1051 00:58:42,719 --> 00:58:44,054 30 days. 1052 00:58:44,087 --> 00:58:47,691 I mean, I barely have enough energy 1053 00:58:47,724 --> 00:58:49,926 to get out of bed. 1054 00:58:49,960 --> 00:58:52,462 I mean, you know, I have food. 1055 00:58:52,562 --> 00:58:56,366 I have five, six days worth of food, 1056 00:58:56,366 --> 00:58:58,969 but I just have not had an appetite, 1057 00:58:59,002 --> 00:59:01,471 and I don't know why. 1058 00:59:01,505 --> 00:59:07,310 ♪ 1059 00:59:07,411 --> 00:59:10,180 [phone beeps] 1060 00:59:12,449 --> 00:59:13,683 Hey, it's Will. 1061 00:59:15,886 --> 00:59:18,255 I'm--I'm officially tapping out. 1062 00:59:21,758 --> 00:59:23,760 [sighs] 1063 00:59:27,164 --> 00:59:29,132 The most-- 1064 00:59:29,166 --> 00:59:32,869 ♪ 1065 00:59:32,903 --> 00:59:35,172 That was the most difficult thing 1066 00:59:35,205 --> 00:59:36,973 I ever had to do, I think. 1067 00:59:37,007 --> 00:59:43,280 And, uh, it wasn't easy, but 1068 00:59:43,313 --> 00:59:46,283 it was the right thing to do. 1069 00:59:46,316 --> 00:59:53,323 ♪ 1070 00:59:58,662 --> 01:00:01,965 I haven't anaq -ed in weeks, pooped. 1071 01:00:01,998 --> 01:00:03,166 ♪ 1072 01:00:03,166 --> 01:00:04,701 Um, 1073 01:00:04,801 --> 01:00:08,205 starting to get stomach cramps a week ago. 1074 01:00:08,238 --> 01:00:11,975 And, yeah, I don't have energy to do anything 1075 01:00:12,008 --> 01:00:15,011 other than just lay here. 1076 01:00:15,045 --> 01:00:17,447 I know that my mind and my spirit can. 1077 01:00:17,481 --> 01:00:19,182 Right now, my body can't. 1078 01:00:19,282 --> 01:00:20,917 So that's something I've just-- 1079 01:00:20,917 --> 01:00:23,253 I've come to accept. 1080 01:00:23,286 --> 01:00:28,358 And it's been by far 1081 01:00:28,391 --> 01:00:30,193 the most amazing experience, 1082 01:00:30,227 --> 01:00:33,430 other than seeing the birth of each of my four kids 1083 01:00:33,463 --> 01:00:35,198 and being there. 1084 01:00:35,232 --> 01:00:38,101 I mean, this is right there with it-- 1085 01:00:38,135 --> 01:00:41,071 just... [sighs] 1086 01:00:41,104 --> 01:00:44,007 being a part of this land, you know, being out here alone. 1087 01:00:44,040 --> 01:00:46,476 And just-- 1088 01:00:46,510 --> 01:00:47,777 it was a beautiful thing, 1089 01:00:47,811 --> 01:00:50,714 and I hate to see it come to an end. 1090 01:00:50,747 --> 01:00:53,750 ♪ 1091 01:00:53,783 --> 01:00:56,453 Coming out here, I kind of thought, 1092 01:00:56,486 --> 01:00:59,189 I'm just a simple Iñupiaq man. 1093 01:00:59,189 --> 01:01:01,258 I'm willing to die to win this. 1094 01:01:01,291 --> 01:01:03,460 But then you come out here, and you just realize 1095 01:01:03,560 --> 01:01:07,197 how much more is involved, including your kids, 1096 01:01:07,230 --> 01:01:11,234 including your wife, including everything. 1097 01:01:11,234 --> 01:01:12,903 ♪ 1098 01:01:13,003 --> 01:01:16,039 You know, I didn't grow up with a wealthy family 1099 01:01:16,039 --> 01:01:18,675 or a high school graduation. None of that. 1100 01:01:18,708 --> 01:01:20,510 My culture is all I've had. 1101 01:01:20,510 --> 01:01:23,613 And kind of thought, I gotta win this 1102 01:01:23,647 --> 01:01:27,083 to represent the Iñupiaq people. 1103 01:01:27,083 --> 01:01:29,052 But within the last few days, 1104 01:01:29,085 --> 01:01:32,956 I kind of realized just by stepping onto this land, 1105 01:01:32,989 --> 01:01:35,592 I've represented them. 1106 01:01:35,625 --> 01:01:36,993 The things that I've done, 1107 01:01:36,993 --> 01:01:38,395 the traditional ivrulik 1108 01:01:38,428 --> 01:01:40,997 that I've made, the tools that I've made, 1109 01:01:41,031 --> 01:01:44,234 it was all based on our culture. 1110 01:01:44,267 --> 01:01:49,206 ♪ 1111 01:01:49,239 --> 01:01:50,774 It was important to me, 1112 01:01:50,807 --> 01:01:54,945 and I would love for it to be just as important to my kids. 1113 01:01:54,978 --> 01:01:56,746 I think it's something that they're gonna remember 1114 01:01:56,780 --> 01:01:59,883 for the rest of their lives. They will, just as I will. 1115 01:01:59,916 --> 01:02:02,352 And they'll be telling their kids about it 1116 01:02:02,352 --> 01:02:04,187 and maybe even their grandkids about it, 1117 01:02:04,221 --> 01:02:07,157 that a young kid from the tundra, 1118 01:02:07,190 --> 01:02:09,159 as I like to say... 1119 01:02:09,159 --> 01:02:11,595 ♪ 1120 01:02:11,628 --> 01:02:15,065 Came here on a worldwide stage of survival 1121 01:02:15,165 --> 01:02:18,635 and represented the Iñupiaq people. 1122 01:02:18,668 --> 01:02:20,437 And that's one thing that I wanted to do 1123 01:02:20,437 --> 01:02:23,607 and one thing that I feel like I've done 1124 01:02:23,640 --> 01:02:25,675 in the short amount of time that I've had here. 1125 01:02:25,709 --> 01:02:27,911 ♪ 1126 01:02:27,911 --> 01:02:30,247 I kind of feel like I found more of the person 1127 01:02:30,280 --> 01:02:31,715 who I'm supposed to be. 1128 01:02:31,715 --> 01:02:34,718 ♪ 1129 01:02:34,751 --> 01:02:38,822 Elders are extremely important people, 1130 01:02:38,855 --> 01:02:41,591 and sometimes I don't think they realize it, 1131 01:02:41,691 --> 01:02:43,994 but a lot of knowledge 1132 01:02:44,027 --> 01:02:46,496 has been passed down to them, you know? 1133 01:02:46,596 --> 01:02:51,334 It's not written in books or TV shows, none of that. 1134 01:02:51,368 --> 01:02:53,036 It's all just passed down, 1135 01:02:53,036 --> 01:02:55,205 person to person, 1136 01:02:55,205 --> 01:02:58,875 and I just absorbed it all. 1137 01:02:58,908 --> 01:03:01,978 I'm feeling really proud about that. 1138 01:03:02,012 --> 01:03:04,748 And until the day that I die, 1139 01:03:04,781 --> 01:03:08,151 I'm gonna pass all that knowledge down to my kids. 1140 01:03:08,184 --> 01:03:09,252 ♪ 1141 01:03:09,286 --> 01:03:11,288 This is our history. 1142 01:03:14,524 --> 01:03:20,764 ♪ 1143 01:03:20,797 --> 01:03:23,366 [Ziga] I can smell some unpleasant smell. 1144 01:03:23,366 --> 01:03:24,868 [bleep]. 1145 01:03:24,968 --> 01:03:27,337 Each piece of meat spoiling. 1146 01:03:27,370 --> 01:03:29,673 This weather sucks. 1147 01:03:29,706 --> 01:03:31,408 [Andrew] I've been making a coracle, 1148 01:03:31,441 --> 01:03:32,409 which is a small boat. 1149 01:03:32,442 --> 01:03:33,777 Let's do it. 1150 01:03:33,877 --> 01:03:36,112 My concern is that if I do get cold and wet, 1151 01:03:36,212 --> 01:03:37,514 at the very least, 1152 01:03:37,514 --> 01:03:38,848 it would mean having to tap out. 1153 01:03:38,882 --> 01:03:41,284 At the worst, it could put my life in danger. 1154 01:03:41,284 --> 01:03:42,752 Whoa. 1155 01:03:42,786 --> 01:03:44,688 [Jacks] My stomach is feeling really funny right now. 1156 01:03:44,721 --> 01:03:46,890 Why would this be happening to me? 1157 01:03:46,923 --> 01:03:50,193 Just pain. 1158 01:03:50,293 --> 01:03:52,028 I don't know why. 1159 01:03:52,062 --> 01:03:54,097 It just hurts so bad.